SincerelyErin

Do you have trust issues?

01 Feb 2012 1 Comment

by Erin Elizabeth Jones in Faith, Life Lessons

Wow!  What a question, right?  I would automatically tell you, “NO!” if someone ever dared ask me that question.

The truth is, lately God has been wrecking me with this question.  You know when God asks you if you trust him…..it really makes you think.

What about when you finally come to the realization that you don’t trust Him like you thought you did?  It’s very sobering.  I hate feeling like I don’t fully, 150%, whole heartedly trust God.  Let’s be honest, it’s really, really difficult sometimes.

The great thing about recognizing a weakness in your life is that there is always room for improvement & we have a chance to grow.  Growing pains hurt and are kind of miserable at times, but the end result is maturity and tenacity and a deeper understanding of who our teacher is.

In my case, my teacher has been Jesus lately.  Who better, right?  I often fall short of His glory.  The great thing is, it makes me realize how much I need Him.  I’m not meant to get the glory anyway; Christ is!  So that works out perfectly.

Lately, the Lord has been pressing me about certain areas of my life where I lack faith-let’s just call it like it is.  I wouldn’t come right out and say that, but my actions put on a demonstration sometimes.

I have been reading scripture and meditating on God’s faithfulness, how He knows it all & sees it all.  I have been meditating on the FACT that God’s timing is perfect; how He sees every detail & how He is working it ALL out for my good.  I have been worshiping like I never have before.  I am learning to worship as the ONLY option; instead of a last resort.  I don’t mean singing a slow song, I mean on my face in desperation, repentance & in awe of what a GOOD God I serve. Yes, the repentance part is super important!  Wow, I’m being very vulnerable here (deep breath)  I don’t say this to be proud, but to tell you that I have struggles, that I’m far from perfect, but Praise God that I serve a god who is perfect in all of His ways!  He is always working things out in me.  The end result is always beautiful & demonstrates strength, but most of all it brings glory to His name.

I want to encourage you today as I have been challenged to trust God just a little bit more.  As we grow in our relationships, we are able to trust more because we know & understand in a deeper way.

God has NEVER given me a reason to doubt Him.  I am the only doubter in our relationship.  There is NOTHING too big for Him, there is nothing too hard or too trivial.  He cares about us with an everlasting love. His love NEVER fails, it NEVER gives up, it NEVER runs out!  His promises are YES & Amen!  Sometimes, you just gotta’ preach yourself happy!!  I know these things at my core, but not always do they reflect in my thoughts or in my actions.  It’s not enough to just “know” something.  We need to know & BELIEVE.

Day by day, I am giving up my “trust issues”  ;)